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Thursday, March 3, 2005

2:37PM - hmmm...

I just joined this community today
I just made this LJ yesterday... It will only contain my stories, poems and tragic letters. I was hoping for Input.
If you wanna know ME better... my actual journal is urmybestisfrend . thats my usuall user name.
Anyhow.. If anyone reads the few enties I have... please tell me what you think. *I LIKE PAIN.
And if you like it... I hope you'll add me as a friend... (I have none)

Monday, February 14, 2005


So I was hanging out with a few friends friday night, I had a little to much to drink, and I called my ex boyfriend (were pretty good friends, so we talk most of the time). Anyway, I guess I was flipping out, and crying, because hes in love with this girl hes dating now, and I still kinda have some feelings for him. he was so worried about me, that he came over to my house, just to see if I was alright, and I guess I was still flipping out when he came down here. I know thats not really the point of my story, but its like why, do you have to feel so devided inside, like part of you just wants to move on and get them out of your head, and another part of you just wants to have them back in your arms. Its weird, because sometimes I hate him so much, and then other times I just don't. And I don't know what to do.

Current mood: confused

Wednesday, December 29, 2004


So Im in love with this amazing boy. The thing is hes in love with my best friend. I dont know what to do. Please help me....</3

Thursday, December 23, 2004

9:00PM - ...

I saw this comunity and I thought it was cool. I really hate when you fall for someone and they fall for someone else who isn't you. It sucks
♥ Ashley

Current mood: crazy

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

8:46PM - I need someone to talk to

How can it be that one moment you can feel like the world and the next you feel like absolute shit? How is it that a man can influence every single emotion that runs through your body at a given time? How is it that I gave my heart away to a boy who is with someone else… someone else who I know doesn’t make him happy and I know I could but he’s with her, and he will be. He won’t just leave what he’s got to start over with me. I can understand who would leave a secured relationship to a new scary experience that has no promises and no bonds. Unlike the one the person is currently in. How is it possible for me to loose all that judgment? I don’t even remember the day it happened the day I really fell for him, hard. Not just a “oh he’s cute thing”. A think about him, Dream about him, actions revolve around him sorta thing. The thing where I know it’s such a long shot, but I can’t just give up and let him go. I can’t just forget without even trying. I feel so helpless and stupid… I know she hates me, she knows she has to if she’s ever seen me look at him I gave it all away just there. She must stay awake and night and hope and pray that he doesn’t leave her. Her prayers must be stronger than mine. I hope she sits in her bed with the phone waiting for him to call, because I do. I hope she looks at herself in the mirror just imagining what she could change to make him think she was beautiful, because I do. I hope she lays awake at night and hopes someday he will love her the way she loves him, because I do. I wish I knew her. Maybe she’s great and obviously she’s somehow better than me, I just wish I knew why. Somehow I always manage to get the timing wrong, I just keep telling my self to get over it and move on because its not helping me its not doing any good its not worth it. I can’t. I’ve spent hours thinking, writing, and trying to find ways to just move on. I fell to fast and now it’s too late, and I really think I’m in love.

Im new, and having a pretty bad day... any advice.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

4:35PM - be happy about something

Join a new community at beproud

beproud post this in your journal to spread some sort of happiness. It couldn't hurt. :)

(if you want me to delete this from your community, just let me know. But join first!)

Monday, September 27, 2004



are you broken hearted? join notes_2_my_ex
do you have unsent letters? join notes_2_my_ex
do you have lingering feelings for your ex? join notes_2_my_ex
want your ex to suffer? join notes_2_my_ex
want your ex to know how you feel? join notes_2_my_ex
do you need someone to talk to? join notes_2_my_ex
does your crush even know you're alive? join notes_2_my_ex
do you have a secret love confession? join notes_2_my_ex
are you dying inside? join notes_2_my_ex
did you think he/she was "the one"? join notes_2_my_ex
do you feel alone? join notes_2_my_ex
are you tired of crying? join notes_2_my_ex

Monday, September 20, 2004


why cant he love me?

Sunday, September 12, 2004


Cause when there’s you,
I feel whole,
And there’s no better feeling in the world,
But without you,
I’m alone,
And I’d rather be in love,
With you.

my unrequited loves are married men with children, one of them is getting a divorce actually but i know it can never happen between us because of the age difference and they happen to be my coach and teacher...

Monday, August 30, 2004


Its like if he can't call me I'm not gonna call him.
This summer I've done a lot of thinking, and I've been perfectly happy with out having to see him, and I feel like I'm over it and him, but I know that in a week and a half when school starts, all this feeling like I've gotten over him will fade and I'll be traped again where I cant live with out him.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004


It's always been him.

But now he thinks it's her.

That's crap.

Current mood: aggravated

Tuesday, July 27, 2004


Theres this one girl I really like but she's got a boyfriend. It's really hard to watch it because I can tell he isn't crazy about her like I am. If anyone relates to this: When you look at this certain someone, seeing them smiling because you've made the smile hurts you more then anything, because you know its a temporary thing. I really get the feeling she may be into me as well. *shrugs*....

Current mood: complacent

Monday, July 26, 2004


I hate being around the one that I love and watching him love someone else. It hurts so bad, but I have to watch it because we are all friends with the same people and we hang out with the same people. That makes things rough to watch. My friends say he really wants to be with me, but if that is the case then why isn't he with me.

There is a quote that goes great:

"The worst way to love someone is to have them standing right next to you and knowing you can't have them"

Current mood: confused


I guess I'll start this off by saying that the one think I hate that he does, is when he acts like theres nobody else for him but me. And how I always feel so stupid for letting myself get lost in it all over again.

Saturday, July 24, 2004


This is going to be a great site. Especially because at sometime or another I think we have been through it.

Current mood: contemplative


Ok well I'm just starting of this community, it was a great idea, thanks to you ever I got it from, I'll have to find out so I can credit them. Anyway, this is just a place for people to be, and chat, and tell there stories about love and that other person that stands in there way to the person they want. Enjoy and have fun!

Current mood: cold